Janelle Ortiz

the facade.

Mon, 09 Nov 2009 20:46:14 -0500

i am starting to become ever more aware of the hypocrisy that is humanity. How can someone “love” you so much one day and ex-communicate you the next? People can be so phony. How are you able to cross someone out of your life so readily?

Everything happens for a reason. If it takes this to weed them out, then I am better off with out them.

gimme dat becky.

Sun, 08 Nov 2009 13:39:43 -0500

katiepalmer: i am really amazing at putting myself into super awkward//weird situations- that have...

Tue, 27 Oct 2009 14:27:08 -0400

katiepalmer:

i am really amazing at putting myself into super awkward//weird situations- that have no resolution. sucks

my life story.

why?

Sat, 24 Oct 2009 11:37:44 -0400

does my roommate ALWAYS use the bathroom with the door open? is that totally necessary? i do not want to hear your turdlets plopping into the toilet water after you just peed and i know its splashing back up on you! c’mon man. if you know you’re going to poop close the daggon door.

esqueleto: i just stepped on a snake

Fri, 23 Oct 2009 14:19:35 -0400

esqueleto:

i just stepped on a snake

katiepalmer: it don’t make sense goin to heaven with the...

Mon, 19 Oct 2009 21:49:48 -0400

katiepalmer:

it don’t make sense goin to heaven with the goodie-goodies
dressed in white, i like black timbs and black hoodies

when i die fuck it i wanna go to hell cuz im a piece of shit it aint hard to fuckin tell. it dont make sense going to heaven wit the goody goodies dressed in white i like black timbs and black hoodies. god’ll prolly have me on some real strict shit, no sleepin all day no gettin my dick licked! rollin with the goody goodies loungin in paradise, fuck that shit. i wanna tote guns and shoot dice.

love that song, what you know about biggie?

"I will give you an example of how race affects my life. I live in a place called Alpine, New Jersey...."

Sun, 11 Oct 2009 11:01:47 -0400

“I will give you an example of how race affects my life. I live in a place called Alpine, New Jersey. Live in Alpine, New Jersey, right? My house costs millions of dollars. Don’t hate the player, hate the game. In my neighborhood, there are four black people. Hundreds of houses, four black people. Who are these black people? Well, there’s me, Mary J. Blige, Jay-Z and Eddie Murphy. Only black people in the whole neighborhood. So let’s break it down, let’s break it down: me, I’m a decent comedian. I’m a’ight. Mary J. Blige, one of the greatest R&B singers to ever walk the Earth. Jay-Z, one of the greatest rappers to ever live. Eddie Murphy, one of the funniest actors to ever, ever do it. Do you know what the white man who lives next door to me does for a living? He’s a fucking dentist! He ain’t the best dentist in the world…he ain’t going to the dental Hall of Fame…He don’t get plaques for getting rid of plaque. He’s just a yank-your-tooth-out dentist. See, the black man gotta fly to get to something’ the white man can walk to.”

- Chris Rock (via spokenbeats)

and there are probably no latinos either. tisk tisk, we needa change that.

defeatinglinkingverbs: ortizjn: defeatinglinkingverbs: Perform...

Thu, 08 Oct 2009 23:40:51 -0400

defeatinglinkingverbs:

ortizjn:

defeatinglinkingverbs:

Performance- Wet Tee Tea Party (Like a Virgin)

lmao i am SO upset i missed this.

I am redoing it within the month, would you like to be invited?

oui!

esqueleto: i’ll never understand why people will interact with me in the context of class or the...

Thu, 08 Oct 2009 20:17:46 -0400

esqueleto:

i’ll never understand why people will interact with me in the context of class or the internet but pretend i dont exist in public

exactly. that is why i got rid of facebook b.c its so superficial. DONT BE FAKE BITCH lol jk

defeatinglinkingverbs: Performance- Wet Tee Tea Party (Like a...

Thu, 08 Oct 2009 20:17:12 -0400

defeatinglinkingverbs:

Performance- Wet Tee Tea Party (Like a Virgin)

lmao i am SO upset i missed this.

Apologia

Thu, 08 Oct 2009 19:07:00 -0400

This is my apology for critique number two. I have an apology not in the quotidian sense of the word referring to repentance, but in the context implying a written justification on behalf of my defense. Specifically this is a defense against my own admittance of defeat. I do not apologize (meaning to express remorse) for my loss of interest in this sculpture that I have abandoned. Instead I focus on my decision for abandonment of this particular project. My project or lack there of, culminates from unfamiliarity due to the openness of this assignment which has proven to be an obstacle for this critique. I was unable to become attached to an idea necessary for a sculpture. When I birthed an idea and began the construction I grew less and less dedicated. I forced myself to stick with the idea, wasting money as well as time. I have never had such a reaction to any piece of art I created. I start to ask myself why now? What enacted this response? Am I simply taking the cowardly route of surrender over something I was unsure how to conquer? Should I even feel remorse if that is the case? Why is it wrong to change my mind or to refuse acceptance of sub-par performance in an effort to show a finished product?

Art school has produced these questions in my mind and in analyzing the path to my decision I begin to wonder why is it that we feel apologetic for vacating an idea. I’ve begun with the concept that abandonment symbolizes loss. As humans we shun forfeit and I see this abandonment as a forfeit of my confidence. As artists we must dedicate an immense amount of confidence into everything we attempt because without this esteem how can we create an inherit value to something that an audience as well will merit? Excuses are commonly made in order to justify what we create. I don’t plan on making an excuse in an attempt at justification because a lot of justifications sum up to generalizations and in my opinion that is the more cowardly of the two. The “two” being acceptance of defeat versus dedication to an initial idea while in the process losing your interest. Normally when one loses interest they formulate a new idea and just forget why they disregarded the original impetus. The fact that it is Tuesday coupled with the fact that my critique is on Thursday didn’t allow the renaissance of a new idea. I am not willing to conjure up a reluctant idea for a project so I have some thing to display nor am I willing to hurriedly put together something dissatisfactory in my opinion. In art school so much depends upon the what, how, when, and where of presenting an object. So much is wrapped up within that, that many times one’s own true feelings are oppressed by the more cognitive conscience which knows that if I don’t turn something in the consequences are destructive. But why turn in something that isn’t valued in order to get a grade? Chances are that if the dedication isn’t present the grade won’t be either.

On Tuesday’s critique the notion of “risk taking” was mentioned over and over. I began to wonder what does this term actually mean. I see it in relation to the problem with having an object to show and abandoning ideas in time to concoct a new thing. It is a phrase that has become so overused that in my opinion it debases the subject it objectifies. To claim something as a “risk” is the refusal to accept a failure at any level. A risk is commonly defined as a dangerous chance and more commonly used when we discuss a project that didn’t succeed in all aspects. Why is this a risk and not a failure? There is an avoidance to admit to this lack of success. Deeming it a risk glorifies the courage inferred by trying something unknown. One can point out that if we become too critical of someone trying something new that this will deter any type of innovation, but why is this context of risk more accepted? Why is taking a risk a valid justification for inferiority or is it not?

The constant critique that goes on under this roof is indiscriminate to the value of anything created here and is unseen in any other field outside of the arts. This is why accepting defeat and the endurance of one’s loyalty to an idea is an interest I introduce and something of much distinction. So often we claim quittance as pusillanimity or cowardice. Many times while working on a project we get frustrated or overwhelmed and want to quit. Many don’t and many do. What creates this division? We’ve talked before in class about formulating an idea and sticking with it so rigorously that one sacrifices the integrity of the piece. This is important because with out this ideal a lot of things would never get accomplished, but at the same time this yields mediocrity.

In this Apology I determine to defend my volition to not rush up another idea and create something literally just for show. I stand by my choice to quit the sculpture presented because as a student it is important that I analyze these decisions and occurrences instead of casually moving onto the next idea frantically pulling all nighters to complete some thing. Nor do I see this as a “cop-out” as is frequently coined by my peers to define something thought of as unfair because of a lack of effort. I clearly tried to create something or else I would not have continued to purchase wood and screws up until Monday if I knew Tuesday would fester an insatiable apathy for this sculpture. However it was not a sudden burst of lethargy that struck me this eve. It has been encroaching since I began, but I intended on “toughing it out” to the end until I concluded that it would be more impacting to write this. Inspired by Martin Luther’s “95 Theses” as well as The Apology of Socrates I wanted to stake my claim for distinct dissatisfactions within the realm of art school.

It is essential to note that I do acknowledge the fact that unlike Martin Luther perhaps I have not achieved the status allowing me to express my dissent in such a defiant (although totally spontaneous) manner. Being a student means doing things despite the circumstances and forcing oneself into uncomfortable positions in order to learn. However I find akin to Socrates that I needed to defend my choice that this as well is an important learning experience. I do not see anything that the completion of my intended piece would achieve in comparison to what I am presenting. The aspects of my aforementioned idea were to engage my audience into a dark very confined space that utilized stairs to convey a sense of disorientation. It was a project that would explore the interaction between people and art. Prodding into how one provokes an audience into becoming interested in this interaction and in participating. This Apology does encompass these aspects in a communicative and very time-based manner versus the latter which served as a concrete model. It is forcing the participation of my classmates (you) into talking about how you feel about my statements, which in turn are very confined thoughts specific to me and may (or may not) disorient, or startle some of you. I am also willing to procure the idea that this is more conceptual. Working with my previous piece I noticed I became apathetic to it because I myself didn’t find it able to evoke a sense of curiosity and confidence that was required.

Because I began writing this as an impulse I do not think that this should take away its warrant as a legitimate performance. A friend referenced this in the context of Marcel DuChamp, suggesting a lackadaisical or lazy quality on my behalf. Although untrue, in one facet he was correct: by correlating the two through the aspect in which we delimit the “rights and wrongs” or art. Regardless of my decision to acquit my obligation to the orphan I am presenting, it is now a new type of performance. A performance exploring what is acceptable within the context of art. One can not be held accountable for vagrancy within an original intention. It is a reflex, and this is my defense to combat any controverts in a well thought out and affective dissertation.

KATIE JACLYN KATHARINA NIKKI REBECCA JANELLE AND WHOEVER ELSE I MAYBE FORGOT:

Mon, 05 Oct 2009 21:23:07 -0400

defeatinglinkingverbs:

esqueleto:

i’m thinking we need to make a “ladies of sculpture” calendar for 2010.

everyone knows nothing is hotter than babes with power tools.

thoughts?

FUCK

YES

Dibs on the plasma cutter. And we should make it way classy, like rosie the riveter themed or something

lmao! i wanna pose on the table saw haha jk

Just because you know an artist's entire history does not make you a superior fan.

Thu, 01 Oct 2009 18:09:44 -0400

spokenbeats:

bueller:

fearthenoob:

If someone likes some music, but fails your artist pop-quiz, it does not make them any less of a fan.

Honestly, I don’t give a shit if:

Dilla wore yellow socks in his high school graduation photo.

MF Doom prefers mint chip over rocky road, but would not want either if classic chocolate was available.

Kurt Cobain always asked for 3 meatballs on his spaghetti because he secretly was scared of even numbers.

Travis McCoy’s mom wanted to name him Colt McCoy but she knew there was going to be a well known college quarterback with that name so she went with her second choice, Travis.

Biggie was 3.4 lbs at birth.

Lil Mama was successfully aborted, yet still blesses us with her presence daily.

LMAO

LMFAO. Hilarity.

yikes

Thu, 24 Sep 2009 19:48:01 -0400

today at the library someone returned a cellphone. i looked through (yes, i know shame on me but this was the first time i’ve ever done it!) the text messages and realized it was a guy. then i came across one text he sent saying:

” hey man i dunno if you were plaming on goin to bars but im flat broke and if u want after u go to thing u bring some dicks ovr for drinks. chicks are okay as long as they are very masculine”

haha i’m sorry that last sentence killed me.

i never have time to get on tumblr anymore! ya’ll should visit me sometime at Cabell Library

Thu, 03 Sep 2009 20:11:45 -0400

i never have time to get on tumblr anymore!

ya’ll should visit me sometime at Cabell Library

to do list

Thu, 03 Sep 2009 20:07:30 -0400

esqueleto:

1. stop staying up til 4 a.m. talking to boys

2. attend english class

lol i second Katharina’s sentiments

So Far...

Thu, 03 Sep 2009 20:05:36 -0400

spokenbeats:

-So the new girl they put in our apartment is a foreign exchange student from Germany. She doesn’t say three words to us. At first I thought it was shyness but I’m having some doubts. Oh well.

-At first I was ecstatic that there were so many black freshmen this year, especially males. It’s good to see more young black adults in higher education. However, some but not all have some serious attitude problems. It’s 2009, so why are ya’ll acting like hoodrats and thugs when you are actually intelligent? You don’t have anything to prove.

-There’s a freshman that dresses EXACTLY like Charles Hamilton but he wears baby blue. FAIL.

-Night classes suck, nothing new.

-Someone had the swine flu and they were quarantined in their dorm for 24 hours. Now there’s this feeling that mass hysteria and paranoia will break out because of it. Anyone who coughs or sneezes is likely to be persecuted as if they were a leper.

-People who price textbooks should die a slow and painful death.

-It feels so good being a senior and being with good friends.

I got to Virginia Commonwealth University in Richmond, Virginia and our school has been having a swine flu outbreak since July. it’s really not that serious. everyone is still alive and seems to be fine. like 4 people i know have had it already.

JANELLE

Sun, 30 Aug 2009 23:38:52 -0400

nixxi:

uh, you ever coming to move your shit into our studio!?

haha why did i just see this!!! i moved a freezer into there today. i wanted to text you or something but i dont have your number.

WE ARE IN HISTORY OF ARCHITECTURE TOGETHER AS WELL.

unless you dropped it, which would have been very wise. that crazy crazy teacher!!! ugh. we will need to study together, A LOT. ive already began studying for “quiz #2” A.K.A exam # 2

this was so creepy to me as a youngster!

Sat, 29 Aug 2009 21:36:30 -0400

this was so creepy to me as a youngster!

i hate when i invite somebody somewhere and instead of the Yes or No answer which should insue, i...

Fri, 28 Aug 2009 18:37:55 -0400

i hate when i invite somebody somewhere and instead of the Yes or No answer which should insue, i get a myriad of questions.

“Hey, Do you want to come to my friend’s BBQ?”

Say yes or no. you should know whether you want to come or not. you know who i am, you know my friends. yes or no. gosh maybe i’m being too particular but that really bugs me.